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2024-06-12 01:41Welp, it's happened.
The good news: My friend, my roommate, the guy who I have known for fifteen years now and was kind enough to allow me to live in his home when I had nowhere else to go, has gotten engaged. He returned recently from his latest trip to go visit his German girlfriend, and told me tonight that he proposed to her while he was there, and she said yes. They plan for her to move here by the end of the year.
The bad news: Iiiiiii... will have to go. When his fiancee moves in, I will be expected to move out. I've been doing my best to balance bills and debt with having a life while saving, but anyone who lives in Southern California knows that a single person alone with only a modest income does not stand a chance of surviving here.
I have scoured the internet for affordable/income based housing, but there are so many people in California and so many of them are skirting the poverty line that there are no units available anywhere and waitlists can be up to five years. Yeah. Five years. For a mere opportunity to maybe be considered for a unit.
I really have no idea what I'm going to do.
My girlfriend is visiting next month for almost three weeks and I'm so, so excited for that, and I just. Want to shut down and shut off and just focus on that and nothing else, but I feel so anxious and unsettled now. I will definitely be ramping up my studying for this IT program to try and finish faster, even if I have to dedicate several hours every single night to try and fast track this thing.
If I can't manage to score a good paying job by the end of the year, what? I'll have to move out of state. Away from my awesome new job, away from my friends, and everything I know. How do I even do that? Where would I go? My massage license is only good in California, too, so I won't be able to continue doing the job I've been doing for the past decade.
I'm sure I'll survive, I just. Needed to vent a little.
The good news: My friend, my roommate, the guy who I have known for fifteen years now and was kind enough to allow me to live in his home when I had nowhere else to go, has gotten engaged. He returned recently from his latest trip to go visit his German girlfriend, and told me tonight that he proposed to her while he was there, and she said yes. They plan for her to move here by the end of the year.
The bad news: Iiiiiii... will have to go. When his fiancee moves in, I will be expected to move out. I've been doing my best to balance bills and debt with having a life while saving, but anyone who lives in Southern California knows that a single person alone with only a modest income does not stand a chance of surviving here.
I have scoured the internet for affordable/income based housing, but there are so many people in California and so many of them are skirting the poverty line that there are no units available anywhere and waitlists can be up to five years. Yeah. Five years. For a mere opportunity to maybe be considered for a unit.
I really have no idea what I'm going to do.
My girlfriend is visiting next month for almost three weeks and I'm so, so excited for that, and I just. Want to shut down and shut off and just focus on that and nothing else, but I feel so anxious and unsettled now. I will definitely be ramping up my studying for this IT program to try and finish faster, even if I have to dedicate several hours every single night to try and fast track this thing.
If I can't manage to score a good paying job by the end of the year, what? I'll have to move out of state. Away from my awesome new job, away from my friends, and everything I know. How do I even do that? Where would I go? My massage license is only good in California, too, so I won't be able to continue doing the job I've been doing for the past decade.
I'm sure I'll survive, I just. Needed to vent a little.
